Friday, February 03, 2006


So many times when I sit down to write a post, oh so subtly an attitude of pride creeps in "look at me! Look at how smart and enlightened I am!" What a lie!
Not today.
Today I feel so broken down and bound up, I feel like I don't know which way is up, or what is reality. The holes in my heart and the chains on my soul have worn me down. But my God is so faithful! My Abba Father, my Daddy-God is so good to me! Today, after I put my girls down for their naps, I just poured out my heart to Him. I was reminded (The thing I love best about praying these days, is watching the Holy Spirit bring to mind what I should pray) that His arms have been around me from before I even knew it, and they never leave. He is here, close to me. He desires to free me from my chains of bitterness and fill up the holes of abandonment, if I will just admit that I can't do it myself, and no one can do it for me, but Him.
After that I just took a nap, I listened to some music, cried a little and slept. Sometimes that is the best medicine.
I am confident that I am walking through a season, not stuck some place, I know God is at work. I'm hopeful, but broken.

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